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2005/11/5 21:18:15
『尐敏ル』 |
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天气:
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| 老公：或许你真的不知道有时候你的一句话可以让一个爱你的人心好痛。不要再伤害我了，好吗？？？ 我拥有的是一颗水晶心，透明但是易碎。我不想让它再摔碎。 |
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2005/11/5 21:03:29
『尐敏ル』 |
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天气:
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| 今天下午的雨好大，好久没看到这么大的雨了。叶：我跟他说了。 |
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2005/11/5 20:12:43
『ㄗs:遂.風﹖』 |
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天气:
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2005/11/5 20:06:11
『┊讌 敏┊』 |
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天气:
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| 叶：我觉得这件事还是你自己说比较好。而且我相信雁来不会怪你的 ```每个人都会有犯错的时候呀~如果不行，我跟他说把。 |
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2005/11/5 20:02:25
『蓝』 |
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天气:
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| 我不习惯一个人 我不要一个人 我们做回朋友好吗 你不要这样好吗 我真的```````````````就算自私 我知道错了 我讨厌死我自己了 为什么会这样 为什么放不下``````````` |
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2005/11/5 18:48:15
『ㄗs:遂.風﹖』 |
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天气:
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| 叶和敏：你们有什么事瞒着我么？玲洁你说吧``我不会生气的`你们都说吧```我无所谓了``你们这样一次次我真的心很烦了`你们有什么事情不能告诉我呢``告诉我好么``就算我求求你们了``我们几个之间有必要这样么`你说吧``我不会怪你们任何人的`要怪那就怪我自己吧```你们也不用担心我``我很坚强的`我会做好心理准备的`我什么都可以承受```你们早点告诉我`我现在什么都在想``我也不知道你们现在说的到底是什么事情``你们值得这样么`真的很希望知道一切的```我``I MISS 知道一切``等到你们的结果中``````````` |
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2005/11/5 18:29:34
『水灵』 |
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天气:
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| 无意间知道了这个网站，看了上面别人写的日记，觉得不错。也想来写点什么的。 |
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2005/11/5 17:39:37
『我』 |
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天气:
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| 我只想把一切都忘记，从新过我自己的生活，我不想在这样下去了，这样过的好累，好累，是该结束了 |
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2005/11/5 17:28:16
『蓝色心情』 |
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天气:
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| 最近的心情不知为什么总是想莫名其妙的发火，好烦，好多作业都不会做，好像我每次心情不好都会上网，我上网的时间比我学习的时间还长。只要我心情不好，就是有课我也会来上的，在这里我学习没有学好，倒学会了逃课。想想都有点不可意思自己竟然会变成这个样子。 |
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2005/11/5 17:23:51
『叶』 |
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天气:
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2005/11/5 14:23:13
『择我所爱』 |
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天气:
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| 今天,走在熟悉的荔枝公园路上,突然想起了给新打电话,毫不犹豫的拨打过去,"你拨打的电话号码已失效"提示音让我有一种心凉透般的感觉.时间已经摧毁了当初的一切承诺.呆呆的坐在我们曾经坐过的凳子上,心情很凄凉,往事沥沥在目.不敢再回忆,惆怅的离开这个曾经熟悉的地方.为什么你总是我心口永远的痛! |
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2005/11/5 12:56:13
『平』 |
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天气:
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| 我的哥哥,你去了哪里,为什么要躲起来让我找不到你,好牵挂你啊.
你唯一的妹妹 |
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2005/11/5 12:36:51
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2005/11/5 7:14:15
『顽皮的宝宝』 |
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| 又是一个通宵啊！好困啊！今天又要睡一天的觉了，真无聊啊！人活着到底是为了什么啊！谁能告诉我呀！，算了，我要回学校睡觉了，下个星期在来寻找答案吧！ |
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2005/11/5 0:57:41
『强』 |
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| 瑶`你现在还过得好嘛？之中我和你分手那一刻开始`你知道我心里面有多痛，有多难过嘛？`我算了算`我们分手有2年了吧`这2年的时间里面有多少痛，有多少伤心``我看到你的身影慢慢象相反地方走去
`你知道我心里面是多么想拉住你`想告诉你`我是永远会爱你的`
`但是我没有做`我也知道就算我做了也没有什么用`
`在这2年里面你知道我心里面有多想你嘛`我好想时光倒流`那我就会拉住对你说`我爱你`不会让你走`但是我自己也知道现在后悔也没有用了`````
`````就算我们分手了`我还是真心爱你的`我现在一直在等你回到我身边``我的心是永远不变的`
````我想到`你和我分手说的话```我现在就会哭出来```我是真的好难过啊`现在没有一个人了解我``你知道我多么痛苦嘛？ |
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2005/11/5 0:30:35
『人淡如菊』 |
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| 我们在一起总是斗嘴,总是像孩子一样争个输赢。你说你欣赏的是一这样一种爱情：没有太多的轰轰烈烈惊天动地,有的是象流水一样绵延不断的感觉；没有太多的海誓山盟花前月下，有的是相对无言眼波如流的默契……我一直还记得那个下午，你坐在我对面，看着杂志看着玻璃窗外的人来人往，咖啡的香味在我们之间弥散。心情平静美好，我们看着对方微笑。那时，我固执的认为你就是我的。不开心会给你说，喝醉了一定给你电话，半夜被噩梦吓醒一定会马上哭着打电话给你说那梦有多可怕，你总是24小时开机温柔的安慰我。你就这样陪着我，虽然也经常说我苯，和我斗嘴，气的我说不出来话，可我真的以为你是我的。
你后来一直问我怎么知道她存在的，我一直没说。其实是那天我们去吃饭的时候，你上洗手间的时候，手机响了，是短信，我看了。上面的字很简短：“老公，我饿了。”我一下呆了，这时你来了，慌乱中我把它删除了。我尽量装做若无其事，但我还是控制不了，吃牛排的时候，故意把辣椒酱撒到你衣服上，说话全和你抬杠，我就想和你吵架，大骂你一顿，然后拂袖而去。但你却一直迁就着我。你以为我只是突然的间歇性情绪不好。送我到门口，我看着你，第一次认真的对你说：“再见”。你不知道对我来说“再见”就是在也没有责任义务再见面。
我们认识了三年了吧，很多东西已经成了习惯。我习惯装作什么也没发生，努力克制自己，让自己和你淡薄、疏远。问什么也不跟你说。你不知道在那段时间里面我是怎样痛苦的克制自己。克制自己不给你电话，克制自己喝多了不给你电话，克制自己半夜突然想到你不给你电话，直到自己哭的泪流满面......
我用了好长的时间，才使自己归于平静。终于可以平静的和你说笑，气着我的时候，我可以大声是说：“你去死吧！”，你总是笑嘻嘻的说：“我死了，你怎么办...”。也可以平静的对你说，我爱上了另一个男人，为他我改变了多少，有多矛盾和痛苦，喜悦和开心...
我以为一切的一切就这样下去了，我们两个是交叉过后的平行线，再不相交。但今天，我碰见了个久未联系的朋友，他告诉了我，那个她其实只是你的一个普通朋友，她只是习惯了那样同你开玩笑。你一直弄不清楚为什么我的突然转性、冷淡，你气我连你电话都不接，问什么也不说...今天我也才知道，原来你给我设置的彩铃音乐叫 BECAUSE I Love You.....
朋友说：“我觉得你们那么合适，以为你们一定会走到最后的...。”
我不知道该怎样告诉你我此刻的心情。但我知道，我们已经错过了。
我把给你的彩铃换了，新的歌名叫“向左走，向右走” |
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2005/11/5 0:25:48
『羽燕』 |
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| 刚才看了我那篇日记觉得自己很厉害啊,可能伤感的时候人就是艺术家.你选择了她.我知道了什么都知道.无论你认为我是骗你还我真的做错了什么而我不知道的.我都不想去说了.可能你认为我骗你的会随着时间的流逝你会明白我的做法.或者证明我是清白的是你冤枉了我.呵呵~~~~从第一次分手以后在我的语言里面就习惯了有"呵呵~~~"这个词语存在,在QQ上这已经成为我的标志.我就是希望自己开心!是的，我承认我对自己说的谎，我骗不了我自己，因为我找不到合适的理由说给我自己听，找不到足够的理由让我自己不再爱你。昔日的点点滴滴，总是在我心底重复播放,今天的你还好吗？这是我最想知道的，真的想放弃了放过自己放过你,遍体鳞伤的结局不一定就能刻骨铭心。但这样的结局现在也以让我全身没有一处是完好的。就轻轻的挥挥手，对昔日说声再见！ 真的感谢！这一路上有你.曾说过爱你，今天明天或是将来仍是爱你，只是成了爱你却不能与你在一起。这次我伤了妈妈的心伤了家人的心。甚至我弟弟也懂事到说：姐开心点，还有我们，我们是陪你一辈子的人。凡事都有得有失吧——我再一次感觉到我的家人的重要家人的温暖。其实曾经有种感觉，想让它成为永远。当我在开始去实现这个“永远”的时候。才发现它已渐渐的消失了。今天我总算悟出：“原来握在手里的不一定就是我们真正拥有的，我们所拥有的也不一定就是我们真正铭刻在心的！继而明白人生很多的时候需要对宁静的关照和自觉的放弃或许可以讲放弃是因为爱！”放弃心仪已久却无缘朋友，放弃某种投入却无收获的情，放弃某种心灵的期望。我不是因为你而来到这个世界，却是因为你而更加眷恋这个世界。如果能和你在一起，我会对这个世界满怀感激，既然现在不能和你在一起，我默默的走开吧，无论我现在的身体状况是怎么样，仍然不会失掉对这个世界的爱和感激??感谢上帝让我与你相遇又与你分离。在以后的路里，希望我们永远不要见面了，就当从不认识过，碰面的时候就当不认识我好吗。愿每一个花之晨雪之夕，每一个有星的夜，每一个有梦的白昼，每一朵花的馨香中你都感觉到我对你的祝福，每一阵轻风中都有我的心语。（原本是想给你打电话说完这翻话的，但觉得还没这个必要了。你知道不知道都是那样的。我会好好的吃药顺利的把学业完成） |
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2005/11/4 23:47:26
『顽皮的宝宝』 |
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| 已经快午夜了，通宵的感觉真是过瘾啊！！！！怎么，这么晚了还有人在写日记啊，好吧，我也写几句吧，哈哈，晚安~！ |
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2005/11/4 23:12:36
『了色』 |
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| 很久很久没在这留言了，以前也是她介绍我来这的，也许她自己现在都不来了。网上看到你上线，知道你又回家了。可是我不知道和你说些什么，我影身着你大概不知道吧。。我们之间越来越陌生了。
期待你的出现，可又害怕你的出现。矛盾的我选择逃避。。
詹，见到阳光就微笑。。SQJ |
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2005/11/4 23:04:05
『羽燕』 |
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| 快到你生日了啊生日快乐!!.对不起啊我今晚把我自己一手做的网业摧毁了.不过有一篇日记令我自己很回味的----
2005-3-27 阴 星期日
今天好想好想你了。所以又来到这里了。有时候在想是不是太过年轻的爱情经不起岁月的考验，所以我们有了心疼，有了忧伤，有了绝望。
我想你。
你在做什么呢？
我告诉他们我和你分手了。一想到这我心里就很难过。心疼的感觉你知道吗？以前我不知道心疼是什么感觉，在我的意识里心疼只是一种形容难过到极点的词语，其实不然。在和你相处的一年时间里让我真正地体会到了心疼的感觉，它真的会一下一下像有重锤砸在上面那般疼痛。
仅仅知道你为我哭的一次还是从钟贞的口里知道，我真的好失败啊。还有吗？还有我不知道的吗？
我爱你，你知道吗？
到底是谁的错？是我吗？是我不够珍惜，还是？
我很伤心你知道吗？我感觉你离我越来越远了。是从什么时候开始我怕和你说话，我怕哪一句不对，会令你不开心。就连你对我说你要会同时再交个女朋友这样离谱的建议我都不知道该怎样来反驳。我在心里对自己说，你这样做是不对的，但我又没有什么强硬的道理来说服你，所以索性不反驳，这样至少可以不动摇我最后的一点信念。我不想我说出的每一句话在你面前都成为错误。我要把我最后的一点自尊与信念保留下来。自从爱上你以后，我就再也不是原来的我了，我迷失了自己。我发现自己已经渐渐地转化为你的附属品，我不喜欢这样的变化，可是又在不经意间自觉得变化着。我爱你，真的。我不想和你把任何事都争论出个是与非，我以为这样无谓的争吵会让你难过。我希望你是快乐的，永远快乐的！
我喜欢听见你的声音，似乎里面飘满了欢乐的旋律，只要听到你的声音，我的心就会不自觉得轻松起来。
那天你说，打电话给我已经成为你对我履行的一种任务。那时候……我开始讨厌自己，心里有了自己也平复不了的恐惧。
我们俩处在的处境完全不同的，我应该理解你的。你一个人很寂寞，你需要一个人来陪伴，我应该大方点，让那个女孩来陪着你，我不是希望你能够永远快乐吗？只要你能快乐，怎么样都是对的，是吗？有些人也说得对，人不是神仙，人有七情六欲，你也只是个再普通不过的凡人，怎么会不想呢？况且又有女孩子喜欢你，追求你，你能做到今天这一点已经很不容易了，我应该感到满足是吗？
相信你是真真实实的爱过我的，因为我是有感觉的。
但…….为什么呢？为什么要告诉我这么多事情呢？如果你不说，我就不会知道也不会去胡思乱想。难道你的诚实是错的吗？
你知道我想到你跟我说的：同时再交个女朋友时，心里是什么感受吗？你用那不以为然的语气告诉我那只是闹着我，你知道这对于我的自尊是多么大地伤害吗？你的心里真的有我吗？为什么你就不能换个角度想想，为什么你就不想想，如果哪一天我对你说，我要在这里再交一个男朋友，你心里又会是什么感受呢？
你总是说我什么都自己乱想，那你知道吗？那是我愿意的吗？
我很想念你。
在很多我需要你的时候你都不在我的身旁。我不怪你。这不是你所能决定的。那天你跟我说分手了，我一个人在冷冰冰的宿舍里。我很害怕，不知所措。我只不过才二十岁。你确定我可以一个人承受下所有的吗，让我独自休会这对于我来说从未有过的惊恐。你真的那么忍心吗？你真的忘记了我无助的眼泪了吗？你知不知道你对于我来说是多么重要，就在那个时候无论谁，无论什么话，都及不上你一句轻轻地问候。你知道你在我心里的重量吗？你就那么轻视你在我心中的地位？
是我不够珍惜吗？
伊莎说的对，你不能对男人说我爱你。男人不能惯。
我不能告诉你，除了你，我可能看不上任何一个男人。我不能告诉你，你带给我无比沉重的绝望，不再相信爱情。我不能告诉你，我把自己毫无保留地都给了你，再也没什么可以给任何人。
我在深夜里静静地哭泣
不断地责备自己
不够珍惜不够理解你
想用舌头舔舐心里的伤口
无奈舌头太短
只好眼睁睁地看着鲜血兀自地往外流
我们是两只刺猬
想要互相取暖
却又刺痛了对方
不得以分开
远远地驻望
希望对方可以过的更好
街头的玫瑰鲜艳如血
很久很久
没从你那里收过一枝了
也许这一切都不是我们的错，只因我们太年轻。
其实我不相信誓言的。我们只有这辈子，而且这辈子，还没有走到尽头。只要时间未到，所有的一切，都不能说真正的兑现。
只是你现在说了这样的话，那么这一刻，就没有所谓的真和假，即使有一天，你离开了我，这些话，在你说出来的那个时刻，就是最真实的誓言。它存在于曾经的那个时刻，与结果无关......
女人在本质上，对任何事情都没有安全感。一旦女人要去依赖一样东西生长的时候，她最本质的感受，就是无法真正的去相信永远的存在。
也许人生真的需要一个人，一件事，需要用滂沱的泪水和痛彻心扉的绝望，才能够真正的让一个人去体会真正的成长。
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